This season speaks to renewal, to a fresh start, to forgiveness - of others, but perhaps the hardest of all: of yourself. For some people, there's a door blocking their way.With a link to his Easter thoughts from last year: Grace
I am Jacob Marley.Pride prevents us from opening the Doors or from accepting someones' Grace.
We all are. We forge our own psychological chains. Each time we let down those who love us, each act of Foolish Pride, another link gets forged. The longer we live, the longer the chain becomes. Our nature is perfectly imperfect: Out of the crooked timber that is man, no straight thing straight was ever made.
Pride reminds me of my successes in life, (the few that they are), the tasks I've accomplished, the baubles that I've accumulated, the success of a child. Pride tells me how good I am.
Pride also reminds me of my failures, the "what could have beens" if I had just completed something better. Pride tells me I could have been a better person than what I am.
Pride tells me I don't need to open that Door, but it also tells me I'm not worthy of Grace. To me, Pride is schizophrenic - it is the result of one's actions but at the same time it prevents someone to act.
Grace cannot be taken or earned, it can only be received when offered. To accept Grace, Pride must be conquered to allow ourselves to come forward in Faith and Humility for that one more chance to receive what was offered. Whether Earthly Grace from a loved one or a stranger, or His Amazing Grace, it is there for the receiving.
I, too, am Jacob Marley.
If this Pride could be vanquished, that would be an interesting day.